Where to go from here?

Welcome Baby Sammy!  Samuel Elisha decided he wanted to be famous so he chose to be the first baby born at our hospital.  :)  This picture was in all the local papers around here and we have several momento copies! :)  Fun times.

Along with being a famous baby comes a bunch of gift baskets!!  Did you know that?  I didn't know that!  I'll have to plan future babies better!! :)  One of the gifts was a gift certificate to a local photography studio.  When those pictures come in, I'll tell you more about the family circus involved in getting eight grandkids-all four and under-settled down for pictures. :)





So, fun posting aside, I want to write today-and tomorrow-and the next day-and for however long it will take to figure out my head... :)  (Ya, I know, may never happen)

What makes a life?  What does it mean to have *something to show for your life*?  John and I have been pondering that question (kinda like last time I posted...) again and again lately.  We have been looking back, looking beside, and looking forward-not really getting fond feelings for what we see.  How do we get our focus back?  When we were dating, our dream was to get married.  When we were married, our dream was to go to college.  When we were in college, we realized God wanted us to leave (we know why now).  Our goal became to raise our children (child at the time). 

So, we have $40,000 in student loan debt for two degrees that are not employable.  No one wants to hire teachers who are ACSI certified, but not state certified. 

We have four boys who are growing up really, really fast! 
We have a car and a van-thank you Jesus!! :)
God gave John a better position at work, so he gets a bit more moo-lah, but has to work a bit more time.
And we have boxes that contain what is left of any home we've ever had. 

Our long term outlook, you ask?
1. Pay off our credit cards (stupidity) and our student loans.
2. Buy a home out in the country where we can raise chickens, goats, and kids.
3. Have babies without using Medicaid...
4. Homeschool our children.
5. Have a God-centered home... (I mean, really God-centered.  Not just for show.)

Right now, that looks completely and forever IMPOSSIBLE....  Wait a minute... isn't there some scripture about that or something?  I think there just might be! 

I love you guys, and thanks for reading.  I feel better now.. :)